we filled the day with careless displays

2006-02-07T19:24:00.000+08:00

shit la, life so hectic.
tomorrow, we have three tests.
life is such a bitch.
last night, i stayed up till 1am to complete my maths homework, now my eyes are horrible.
they're all swollen and the dark eyerings are shit :(
and my hair is damn screwed, why can't i have nice hair for once!
one good hair day also cannot give me!

the other day, i wanted to jog around some place outside my condo, but my mom didn't allow because she said got rapists!!!
and i'm very scared because i read about so many rape cases in the papers! (not saying that i'm hot or what)
BUT rapists are all psychotic people, they will just screw anything!

anyway chinese new year sucked because i got so little $$$
wtf, older means need more money what.
i had people giving me $2?!?!?!

i wanna go for a live gig
nononono i really got cheated of my money ................. :(
ok byebye, i must go study for bio and maths test now.

2006-01-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

reunion dinner was alright, at least the service was efficient.
my cousin plays golf and he's 9! :D
i want to learn how to play golf too, i think its such a sexy game, i don't know why.
please don't laugh at me, because i think i will look quite dumb holding a golf club.
but whatever, i'm going to pick up golf when i have the time.

anyway, i was wondering whether postmen work during cny.
i'm expecting something important in the mail and i want to recieve it asap :(

ok anyway i want alot of things, i think i'm going on a shopping spree with kristy on tuesday.
shit i feel bad for spending so much :(
and i want the Panasonic X800, i hope i get it
and after that, i am going to be a nerd, bye.

2006-01-21T19:39:00.000+08:00

school and everything else sucks :(
i haven't said this in my past two years in crescent.
the past two years were fun, now its just shit.
omg i miss hitting michelle wong with my tie after assembly, the talks i had with chantel (and we would always end up yelling because we felt so sore about some things and we were too agitated haha), the daidee times! (we almost got suspended for this :/), the spying times in sec one :(, the outings, the times when denise told us her lame jokes (especially the motocycle one), i miss denise's hand massages!!!!!! ok and i really miss chantel's screams in class, haha i even miss our changing room! i miss sitting next to the window so i can conveniently throw things out.
and hello everyone sits so far away from me during assembly because our classes are so far apart!
i hate everything now.
ok, at least tabitha is my partner and she controls me from eating chocolates however to no avail.
i really have no self-discipline.
and she tried to flip my chair over the other day, and she told me she used to do that to jolynn 10 times a day!

i think i got cheated of my money! shit its karma..........

2006-01-04T21:18:00.000+08:00

i'm so not used to my new class :(
during recess, i'm so used to having people occupy the whole bench ..
ugh, i don't want to say anything else ..
and the Emaths teacher is so creepy, she wrote stuff beside our names.

byebye i hate school and everything else.

2005-12-30T18:01:00.000+08:00

back and i missed my bed very much.
Thailand was alright and there were alot of angmohs!
i remember the last time i went, there weren't so many.
the first three days was just eating, shopping and sleeping, so it was good since i'm such a lazy bitch (i gained 2 kg!!!:( )
oh and i couldn't bring any dunkin donuts back because they'd all turn bad by the time i reach home :(
and the bellboy at the hotel looks like Shawn Yue hahaha.
anyway, on Christmas morning, we had to leave the place because my dad accepted some stupid invitation from his friend.
the next four days were shit because i was stuck with a boy who wore No Fear tee shirts throughout the whole trip, and his voice hasn't fully broken yet, so he sounded very stupid
he is so fucking skinny i felt like smacking him.
and the stupidest part was, he told me his name was Koko.
he is 14, mind you.
oh and that reminds me, i went to some random party before i left, and i saw this boy who was also very skinny wearing a baggy pink shirt with the quote "who wants to marry a hundredaire"
i was very traumatised and very worried for the next generation.
anyway, i was a little sick on the second last day but i still had to follow them because i didn't want to stay in the hotel room alone.
we took a train and travelled along the death railway.
my sister had food poisoning on the last day, and she puked like there was no tomorrow.
frankly, i don't really like travelling unless its a trip for having fun, when i mean fun, i mean like amusement parks, shopping and lazing around.
if its a trip for seeing scenery, i'd rather not go, i hate seeing scenery, especially if it requires me to climb up and down and walk alot.
unfortunately, my parents love seeing scenery, so i'd usually be in a bad mood when i travel with them.

and school is reopening on tuesday :(
i must study hard next year, no more playing.
and i am dead because i haven't done any of my homework.
so much for the study hard resolution.

ok i must go to the gym with my mom when she comes back because she said i am fat.
yeah i know she is damn bad.

2005-12-21T23:44:00.000+08:00

i am leaving for Thailand tomorrow morning.
i will try to bring dunkin donuts back! :D
anyway Merry Christmas in advance :D
byebye!

2005-12-20T11:51:00.000+08:00

my grammar sucked in the previous entry.
had clique outing yesterday, dined at sakae together.
we almost died eating, there was just too much food.
oh and we went to some foam place.
and there was this guy who tried to touch Michelle's boobs with his elbow
but she didn't believe me!
and Grace is so tall now!

i'm into No Doubt again :D
i remember i used to be crazy over them in P5.
i collected all of their posters hahaha.

i have horrible eyes now.
they are swollen and i have dark eyerings, i look like a bloody panda bear.
that description fits me so well, because panda bears are so bloody lazy and picky.
its their own fault that they are now endangered.

ok i'm very happy i'm leaving this thursday.
i mean, i'd be very glad to be anywhere but here right now (yes, even papua new guinea)
i want to go live somewhere else, somewhere like the place they mentioned in Grecian Holiday.
like you have to walk another 10 metres to see another house.
their lives are so lazy and slow, and i really like that.
or even better, i will buy an island all for myself and build a hugeass amusement park and play the whole day long until i get motion sickness and drown in my own puke.

2005-12-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

today went to sentosa with Chantel,Kristy and Michelle.
i didn't get sunburned this time! :D
anyway, i tried to hang from a bridge, and i ended up with 4 cuts.
we were such broke kiddos, so we didn't eat much.

anyway there is a very stupid show on channel 8 now, i must go watch and see how the guy get screwed for two timing.
byebye!

2005-12-06T12:48:00.000+08:00

went out with Morgan yesterday.
we ran in the rain and got all drenched.
then we walked around and tried on clothes haha.
i have a new obsession with lace.
Morgan bought a bag.

anyway, got this from Sarah's blog

Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true,add one true thing about you, and then tag five more people

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olives.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now (it'd be good if i win ToTo)
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
Slept with a Suitemate.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
I don't hate anyone.
I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I like sausage.
I am a pyro.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much. (when i was 4 and just started nursery)
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I f**king hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.(sort of, haha)
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when necessary.

one true fact: i secretly want to screw Harry Potter ( NOT Daniel Radcliffe)
lazy to tag, so won't list out the 5 people.

2005-12-05T10:52:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out with Chantel.
she bought a top and i stood there waiting for her like a bodyguard :P
anyway chantel and i were such brave people, i'm extremely proud of us HAHA.

i think we're having a christmas party :D
Chantel has already volunteered to marinate the chicken and start the fire haha.
Michelle shall buy the drinks
the rest of us will fan the bbq pit :P
the others can just stay there and look pretty.

going out with Morgan later.
i owe her $

2005-12-02T16:15:00.000+08:00

HAHA MY MATHS SUCK TO THE ULTIMATE.

ring ring, who's that calling says:
i found her familiar what
her yellow SUV is now the enemy says:
what a 36 degrees change
ring ring, who's that calling says:
oh i got pretty clothes to show!
her yellow SUV is now the enemy says:
*360
ring ring, who's that calling says:
180, you mean
ring ring, who's that calling says:
360 is the same
her yellow SUV is now the enemy says:
HAHAHAH
ring ring, who's that calling says:
HAHAHA
her yellow SUV is now the enemy says:
HAHAHAHAH
her yellow SUV is now the enemy says:
HAHAHAHA
her yellow SUV is now the enemy says:
OMG MY MATHS SUCK
her yellow SUV is now the enemy says:
OMG
ring ring, who's that calling says:
STUPID :P

2005-12-01T12:02:00.000+08:00

went out with Sarah yesterday
we got our brows done! :D
walked around, sat around, then home.

whoa, its december already!
i don't want school to reopen :(
i've been thinking alot lately and i am really scared of what my future holds, like what kind of job i'd be doing, what kind of car i'd be driving, what kind of life i'd lead, that kind of shit ...
if you get what i mean.
and i came to the conclusion that i'll die a lonely old hag.
because firstly, i don't believe true love actually exists, i think people get married because of companionship, lust and the sex of course.
and when i tell that to my friends, they'll all say, "shut up la, next time you first one to get married!"
we'll see ...
secondly, i do not want animals/kids.
thirdly, i don't want to live with other people because i'm afraid they may dirty my house and i'd have to clean up.
OR YOU KNOW WHAT?
maybe i'm just one of those people who are meant to be alone, like those isolated kind.
and i do not want to be a nun, so shut up those who try to suggest that.
i don't usually think about such things because all my life, i've always been rather spontaneous about my decisions, my parents always let me make my own decisions and i don't map out my future and stuff like that, let alone think about it.

anyway i saw this gorgeous belt online, the more i look at it, the more i want it :(
____ just offered me something, and i'm quite happy
no actually you know what, i'm rather annoyed and angry.
and disgusted because i saw alot of sick things.

2005-11-28T10:36:00.000+08:00

i've been tagged by shermin to do this

1.You get one wish of everything,what would you wish for?
wish for infinite wishes.

2.What animal would you be?
eagle

3.Something you want to do in your life:
bungee jump.

4.One time there were these Ninjas...(finish the statement):
who had gay sex.

5.One song you would listen to over and over again:
can't think of any.

6.Coke or Pepsi:
coke

7.Something you currently desire:
there's nothing that i currently desire, haha.

8.What's a "mustoid"? (Take a guess no peeking in a Dictionary):
a kind of sauce?

9.One good deed you've done lately:
i donated money.

10.A funny Moment in your life:
too many.

i don't want to list out the people who are to do this next, because i'm lazy to tag :P

there is something wrong with my keyboard.
the key beside k cannot work and the key beside ; cannot work too.
i used the input panel to type the ones that cannot work.
and it is damnit irritating.
see now i cannot type b_oody, boody boody!
ugh i cannot b_og proper_y now damnit.
and my skin is pee_ing _ike crazy because of the sunburns.
shit i _ook _ike i have some disease or something.

2005-11-23T22:19:00.000+08:00

the weather is great for sleeping tonight :D
i wanted to swim just now, but the water was bloody cold, so i decided not to.
i think my maid is abit weird, it isn't even december yet, and she has already put up the christmas tree, and it's badly decorated.
not that the christmas tree being badly decorated is her fault, the decorations are at least 10 years old.
i remember when i was younger, i believed Santa Claus really existed, and i would check under the christmas tree every christmas morning, but of course, there wouldn't be anything under the christmas tree, and i would convince myself that it's because Santa didn't have time to come to Singapore.
or maybe Rudolph's nose was broken, so couldn't guide the sleigh.
but it doesn't matter anyway, we aren't going to be in town for christmas this year.
and christmas is my favourite time of the year :(

okay goodnight i'm going to read

2005-11-21T15:41:00.000+08:00

haha talking to Grace now
and we're going to make a date to go shopping :D
girly shopping haha.
and i also owe Morgan a date, was supposed to go out on saturday but didn't, because i had piano lessons :(
and i also need to meet Chantel to get my appeal forms and booklists (she's supposed to date me out)
seeing all the beautiful things online makes me very sad because i have no $ to buy :(
i wish i had magic which will allow me to print out those things i want on paper, and when it comes out of the printer, it becomes the object itself.
okay, too much of Harry Potter.
i'm going to watch the Chamber of Secrets(on tv tonight) even though i've watched it twice already haha.

anyway having movie marathon at Jeremy's on the 17th december and he said he managed to get films which aren't released yet, okay it'd be good i think because it's overnight.

okay got to go meet Kristy, byebye!

2005-11-19T16:27:00.000+08:00

i was looking through all my old photos last night,and decided to do a chaos timeline, haha
i'm really reluctant to part :(

sec one clique shot.
our hair was horrible

sec one clique outing
taken during michelle's birthday i think haha!

in class haha

sec one clique chalet

sec one clique chalet(grace's birthday)

sec one christmas party :D

sec two clique shot

another one, trying to take family potrait :P

class outing

in class hahaha! guess who ;)

the broomstick chaser who's out of the business now :P

recent clique outing :)

neoprints we took

thursday's clique chalet!

circus

sunset

that's about it, there are many many more but some are really damn unglam so cannot post up :P
look at how much we've all changed, haha.

2005-11-18T10:29:00.000+08:00

i had fun the past two days!

wednesday
met michelle and shermin, went to east coast together.
then met kristy and chantel.
rented bikes and cycled around.
then we went tanning, i have sunburns :(
michelle's mom's friend came and helped us check in.
so we showered then cabbed down to mrs goh's house.
the class bbq was okay, took many pictures.
haha we were all scared of her big dogs so germaise had to protect us haha!
all five of us were squeezing onto one arm chair, it was bloody embarrasing and everyone kept laughing at us.
miss tay then gave tabitha,chantel,kristy, shermin and i a lift to the train station so we could take a train down to watch harry potter. (we caught the sneak preview)
then we met lisa.
i was really excited to watch harry potter because of malfoy!!!
malfoy doesn't have slicked back hair anymore and he's damn hot!
after the movie, my dad picked me up while the rest of them went back to the chalet.

thursday
met grace in the morning, took a bus down to the chalet.
when we arrived, they were still sleeping, we pounded on the doors but they still didn't wake up! grace called michelle and she came down to open the door for us, with her astro boy hair haha.
then we went to swim at the pool, tanned more haha.
after tanning went to cycle, explored the place haha!
but anyway we stopped at the jetty to watch the sunset (yeah we are emo galxzxzzx)
and we took pictures, everyone was staring at us because we looked really deranged.
we acted out scenes hahaha!
then my dad brought us all out for dinner :)
after that, sent all of them back to their chalet.
drove to town to pick my mom and sister up, then home.

okay i just received news from tabitha that i'm in 3s3 next year and nobody in chaos is in my class :(
expected, but i'm still sad.
and i didn't pass the amaths test, so it's o level music for me next year.

2005-11-13T20:28:00.000+08:00

my cough is still here :(
it's been here for more than a week already, ugh.
i'm feeling very full because i just had pizza
i feel so fat, because i haven't been exercising :(
even my mom said i've been putting on weight!!!
she said "you better go exercise, so fat now"
!!!!!!!!!
okay tomorrow i'm going to do 20 laps at the pool, then hit the gym or something.
then i'm going to make some date to go tanning

anyway, wednesday having class bbq at gohkc's house.
and thursday clique chalet!
too bad i cannot stay :(
but nevermind, i'll make full use of the time in the day.

i need $$$$$$
and i really cannot wait for my shopping trip! :)

i've been tagged by michelle wong to do this.

1. post five weird/random stuffs about yourself
2. at the end of your post, list the names of 5 people who you want
3. next to do this and leave a comment "you are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules

five weird/random stuffs about me:
-i hate lizards
-when i take tissue paper, i don't take just one, i take a few at one go.
-i like pears better than apples.
-i sneeze very barbarically.
-i hate it when people touch my hair, i hate it!!!

5 people to do this quiz:
-chantel
-kristy
-grace
-sarah
-denise

aeiya i'm lazy to tag their boards, if the five people mentioned see it, then they do la.

and i cannot breathe properly for some reason.
the cough is annoying me :(

2005-11-08T22:07:00.000+08:00

my flu's gone, but the cough is still here :(
last night i had a coughing fit, i coughed and coughed until i thought my brain was going to burst
and i was afraid to open my mouth because last night i saw alot of lizards and i was afraid they might drop into my mouth.
i really hate lizards and i want to eliminate all of them. (then all of us are going to get dengue fever because no one's going to eat the mosquitoes)
and even though no one's going to make honey&lime water for me,
chantel said she'll bring herbal tea for me hee hee <3

we had clique outing today! (but shermin, jasmine and huiying didn't come along)
went to watch cello.
i want to watch harry potter, exorcism of emily rose and saw.
after the movie, michelle went to cut hair while we sat around taking pictures.
went to have lunch, took more pictures.
then we took neoprints, the last time we took was 8 months ago
yay we're having clique chalet :)

2005-11-05T22:05:00.000+08:00

ugh i have a flu, a nasty sorethroat and i'm coughing like some old man.
and i'm not in a very good mood either.
i wish i had some things to do to keep myself busy instead of moping around the house all day long.
being busy could take my mind off some things.

i'm very annoyed with my flu, ugh.
i want to drink honey&lime water :(

2005-11-04T20:59:00.000+08:00

it's really true time is the remedy to many things.
been reading my past chatlogs
haha and i find it extremely amusing, because really ..
people do change their mindsets and somehow, everything changes hahaha.
oh and i read my archives too (only i have the secret link haha! :P)
so .. mockable.

my throat hurts like hell, i feel like slitting it ):
i'm going shopping with sarah next week :)
and bloody hell i just saw something!!!!!

2005-11-01T19:04:00.000+08:00

i was so bored this afternoon, i called up everyone to see if they could go out with me.
but nobody could ):
haha i was bloody desperate i swear.
i don't know what's wrong with me, i called up people at such a random time.
and i was so pathetic, i sat at the bus stop alone haha!
well, thanks everyone who entertained me today, i know i sounded like a brat ):
and i fell twice while walking today because i had blisters on my feet, i am damn clumsy, i know ):

2005-10-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

went out with chantel and lisa today
walked around looking for shoes for chantiexzzxbaby, that princess
okay actually i was quite mean to her because i made her pick up all the shoes for me :P
after that went to meet my mom
then we shopped for awhile before going for my appointment with the doctor.
the doctor is actually very hot, i love her hair ;)

okay, aosagh asdasd adsdohdsljj jyrgf
and you know what, it's not brilliant at all ):
i've been having this undescribable feeling for 5 days straight,
and it's definitely not good, in fact it's shit.
okay, off to the other one.

and for a very random fact of the day: i want denim overalls and the beautiful blazer i saw today!

2005-10-30T19:39:00.000+08:00

i think adults can be pretty narrow-minded at times.
my relatives were upset over a comment i made during dinner last night.
i merely said that people get married because they don't want to be lonely and love doesn't really exist.
and i said i wouldn't want to get tied down by marriage next time.
then my mom said my perceptions on stuff like that are all wrong blah blah.
then i jokingly told my cousin(who has tons of suitors) that she should choose the best (rich, smart .. you get the drift), and not to settle for second best, i was damnit joking only, but i guess some adults just can't take jokes like these.
then one of my uncles told my mom that she should have sent me to a mixed school instead of a girls' school because my thoughts were all warped.
i do not see the relevance.
i think he only felt sore because i told my cousin not to choose people from nt(i was joking) and he was from nt before and is still single.
maybe i should just keep my comments to myself next time.

i'm extremely bored ):
this week was horrible
shall date people out tomorrow.
and if no one wants to go out with me, i have my dvds and books (my new best friends)
so it's alright.
but it's so strange, everyone seems so busy ):

and now for shout-outs, haha i think i'm the last in chaos to post them up.

chantel:
haha i remembered the first time we met we were talking about ****!!!
so embarassing! :$
then i sat with her for a period of time, and talked alot alot until we couldn't concentrate on our work.
haha i remember your half pony tail days!
and then i remember in sec one chantel michelle kristy and i would stay back everyday to **** ** **********
i miss all of that really ):
i wished everything remained like that.
sorry for mocking you, but you are always mocking me too!
you and michelle are always ganging up to mock me about the milo incident!
and also, i have an affinity with your spectacles, i almost broke them twice
haha and i remember your smelly pillow, and you fell down countless times while rollerblading.
thanks for listening to all my nonsense everyday, i hoped i helped you too, in someway or other during our talks/gossiping sessions.
haha and we're always so agitated when we talk about certain things, we'll start yelling haha.
don't be so proud of your dimples :P
and thanks for always lending me money when i need it, you're my lifesaver.

denise:
haha my partner!
the most streetsmart person in chaos
if you stick with her, you will never get lost haha.
i remember last year when we went to east coast, i was injured, she cycled me all around!
haha i remember i met her on the first day of school,she was one of the first few friends i made.
she thought i was a senior hahaha
and then, she brought her orange book for us to write all our names, and that's when chaos was formed!
denise is very nice and she always helps me with my work, thanks babe.
and she is always bringing food for us :D
she is very funny and never fails to crack me up, with her motorcycle joke and other stupid jokes she'll tell us randomly.
i think i'll feel weird without you sitting beside me next year ):

grace:
hee, good job at chasing chantel and michelle with your broom, too bad you're out of that business now.
you can be really funny when you are crazy and hyper.
i remember i met her through chantel.she was sitting behind us with jasmine.
and then much earlier this year, i sat with her right in the front for a period of time.
haha we talked alot too, and the teachers were always scolding us, especially josef tan.
i remember we wrote stories about how and where each chaos member would end up when they grow up.
chantel, michelle and kristy all ended up in tasmania HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH ;)
AND ALL OF US REMEMBER HER FAMOUS POSE HAHA!
oh, and she's my best rollerblading partner!
you know, actually you look quite cute with short hair ;)

huiying:
hello pretty girl, you have such nice dimples! (real and deep ones somemore ;) )
so many of our mothers think you're pretty!
haha you're really smart and very small.
very quiet too, everytime i smile at you, you would always awkwardly smile back
and thanks for lending me your tablet whenever i need it!
we must take more clique pictures together
and also go for more chaos outings
and if we have chaos chalet this year, you must try to make it okay?
i remember your birthday is on the 26th december

jasmine:
smart girl!
haha you have nice braces, it's in such a nice colour now :)
anyway you're really smart, i wished i had half of your brain!
hm, thanks for being my partner during badminton,
luckily we always have each other during trainings.
and yes, you must join us more during our outings and chalets!
try to make it for this year's alright?

kristy:
you better stop all your stupid faces during assembly i tell you, aunty!
and her stupid piyopiyo towel and star clips HAHAHA
i cannot forget your stupid f4 hair (now you're shancai) i still have the photo.
okay thanks to your aunty ways, we always have discount coupons hahaha!
although you don't want to share with us sometimes.
anyway thank you for the times when i needed a listening ear
and for entertaining us with your lame-and-stupid jokes on msn.
sorry i'm always so noisy when you are trying to study.
you are actually quite a good motivator haha
and good luck with lions, i know you can make it as a zookeeper ;)
tanning and shopping soon okay?
and you're the only person i know (other than myself) that has long arm hair!
you're such a hip and retarded aunty.

michelle:
aww i thought you wished to grow taller for your birthday, how come you're still at this height? :P
okay nevermind, do more skipping
i thought she was pretty when i first saw her, and now she keeps repeating it over and over again.
you are always ganging up with chantel to mock me.
okay fine, actually we all take turns to gang up with each other to mock one another haha.
kristy can do a perfect imitation of you rolling your eyes HAHAHA
and yeah your best friend(in church) so cool, the hair is .. gorgeous HAHA!
aeiya you have so many best friends i cannot remember which is which.
and anyway, are you trying to turn girly now?
come on, join the shopping gang hahaha wth.
i buy you heels for christmas ;)
oh yeah and thanks for the astro boy towel last christmas, no more astro boy already ):
and i still have the embarrassing pictures of you taken during the christmas party, haha!

shermin:
haha when i first met you, i thought you looked really like my primary school friend!
i thought you looked really innocent also haha.
haha and you always think you're disturbing me on msn, but you're actually not haha.
and you can rollerblade really well!
unlike grace and i, always falling down ):
and yes, you really scared me with the 7th month ghost stories!
i was really scared okay haha.
i think i didn't dare to sleep that night.
you can rape jean with me if you want ;)

i love and will miss all of you ):
you all have been the best
i really enjoyed the 2 years spent with chaos,
and i mean it from the bottomest of my heart.
i still have the list predicting who will marry/have kids first haha!

2005-10-26T20:05:00.000+08:00

didn't go to school today, woke up with a very bad headache.
woke up at 10 in the morning, received a mms from denise,
it was the retarded photo i took with her phone yesterday
popped panadols, then went back to sleep till 6pm
i don't know why, but i felt so "floaty" after my long sleep.
and i can actually think better!

i submitted my option form already.
i think i'm taking combined science, core geog and elective history.
anyway it's quite sad that the school year is coming to an end this friday,
last 2 days with 2s3 and chaos :'(

and for the first time, my piano teacher actually yelled at me last night.
i think she probably broke up with her boyfriend/had bad sex with him.
whatever it is, she needn't yell at me like that.
and i couldn't really do anything because my head was killing me and i couldn't think of what to say.
so i didn't answer, and she scolded me more, damnit.

i want to watch The Family Stone because pretty Rachel McAdams is in it! <3
****** you're damn _______ i love you!!!

2005-10-22T12:37:00.000+08:00

chantel is at the library (or so she claims)
so i cannot go out with her ):
it's a boring saturday.
okay, maybe i shall go ask kristy out.
and i realise, we have to submit our option form by tuesday.
i think i'll just go to whatever combination that accepts me, i don't really have much choice because my average is only a 52%.
jeremy sounded quite sad when i told him i failed math, i think he expected me to pass.
he promised to give me a treat if i pass, but nevermind, i think he'll still give me one :P

i really really feel very disgusted and used (like kristy's used tissue paper)
i cannot believe that after 2 years, ******** ***** **** ***** ** *****
and you know what? that part is fucking scary.
it scares me so much, i don't even dare to think about what could have actually happened.
i'm not going back there ever again, not even near there.

2005-10-21T21:01:00.000+08:00

got back result slip today.
i am still last in class, my class position didn't improve at all.
ah, but whatever i'm going to study fucking hard next year,
i don't want to risk it anymore.

after that, went tanglin macs with sarah.
hmm then we went house hunting!
whoa we had such a good workout, i hope i lost weight!
we went to look at all the huge houses, and they were all so beautiful
i wish i could barge in and live there.
sarah's sister's friend's house has a pool, a huge garden and 8 cars.

i don't like the weather tonight, it's damn hot.
and i don't like to switch on the air-con in my room because it makes my skin very dehydrated.
i want a storm tonight.
so what now? i'm the idiot and the big fool.

2005-10-20T19:50:00.000+08:00

got back rest of the papers today.
as predicted, i failed maths and d&t
i have a borderline pass for my average ):
i'm very worried because we're getting our report books back tomorrow.

ate alot today, now i owe chantel lots of $$$$$
haha, and i saw kim at yoshi.
after that, met up with morgan and sarah.
walked around, then took a bus home with morgan.
morgan lent me archie comics hee hee.

and yay, mommy gave me back my sim card.

2005-10-19T18:56:00.001+08:00

we got back chinese, history and science papers today.
i passed all of them, but history and science were borderline passes.
ah, at least i passed.
tomorrow we're going to get back english,lit,maths and d&t.
i'm 100% sure i failed maths and d&t.

this morning, i had this horrible feeling, like a worm was gnawing at my intestines.
it was damn pain, and the pain stayed there for about an hour or so.
and they made us stay in the hall to listen to stupid talks for 2 hours straight.

anyway after school, we ate alot alot.
food always works for me.
blah blah walked around, then went home with kristy.

i want to go borrow some feel good novels and rent chick flicks with hot people in it,
because it makes me feel nice and happy.

2005-10-18T17:22:00.000+08:00

i didn't go for clique outing today ):
instead, i was forced to go to school.
but anyway, skipped mass run so my attendance wasn't taken.
then at about 9 plus, sarah, morgan and i left school.

accompanied them to town, had breakfast, walked around, then i left.
collecting results tomorrow
shit, i'm very sure i did badly.
and the two red huge pimples on my face aren't making me feel any better ):

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): byebye.

2005-10-17T13:03:00.000+08:00

love by nat king cole is really cute.
i'm beginning to like jazz
haha it makes me feel like dancing.

nice weather today, cool and sunny at the same time, i like.
but i love the rain most.
didn't go to school today because i'm down with fever and body aches ):
every part of my body is hurting, no kidding.
starting from my face, there are two really huge and red pimples which hurt damn badly, and i cannot squeeze them, because they hurt even when i rub my nose.
and there's an ulcer in my mouth.
and 8 mosquitoe bites on my legs
my joints and hips hurt like shit, i don't know why.
i think i'm going to die soon, maybe it's dengue!!!

but i'm quite bored now because i'm all alone at home,
my sister has gone to my cousin's house to play dynasty warriors 5, since ours is spoilt.
and everyone else is still in school.
but anyway, chantel just told me we may have clique outing at east coast tomorrow.
yay we haven't had a clique outing for a very long time.

i'm going to binge on ice cream now(i don't care if the ulcer is going to hurt)
bye.

2005-10-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

school was a waste of time today, shouldn't have gone.
after that, went to town with kristy, michelle and chantel.
it was very crowded, and our legs got all sore from walking.
i have blisters ):
and 8 mosquitoe bites, i just counted them.

i'm tired and upset galzzz and my whole body is aching,
i want to go to bed early goodnight.

2005-10-12T10:11:00.000+08:00

there are so many things we can do now that the exams are over!
yay i am very happy!
outings, tanning, halloween party, chalets, shopping :D
plus a whole lot of other things too!
my mom says she's bringing me on a shopping holiday, i'm very happy and i cannot wait.

my sister is being sickening because she keeps showing off her dimples
she was actually singing about them, atrocious!!!!
she's the only one in my family who has them, ugh ):

anyway i just saw some things, i don't know what to feel, happy or sad.
okay got to go meet Morgan now
byebye!

2005-10-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

the other night i had a very sad dream.
i dreamt that it was my birthday and everyone had forgotten about it.
i was so sad, i teared because nobody remembered.
i didn't even receive a single birthday wish.
and when i asked for a hug from someone (i cannot remember who), the person refused!
i have quite stupid dreams actually.
the other time, i dreamt i made friends with ********!
actually that would be quite okay, but then again, it's quite stupid ,so i will never do that.
hell no.

i really don't want the year to end so quickly, it practically flew by.
i guess all good things have to come to an end eventually
i probably won't get into the same class as anyone in chaos ):
and that's very very sad ):
i will really miss all the stupid things we did
and i don't care, we WILL have a halloween party and chalet okay!
<3

oh and i read the love letters my father wrote to my mom while they were courting (20 years ago i think)
it was damnnnnn mushy but very sweet, i laughed out loud while reading them.
i think i only find it funny because my father wrote them.
and when i asked my father about it, he smiled to himself hahaha!
it was very funny

and i feel so sad because i've put on so much weight, i should really stop eating.
my (head) hair is such a bitch.
and die pimples, die!!!!

2005-10-01T15:42:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel as if i'm always doing the wrong things.
making wrong decisions and end up having to face horrible consequences.
i feel so sad all of a sudden ):
i'd better do well if not i'm definitely going to get kicked out.
went to esplanade library yesterday with morgan.
tried to study but i got quite distracted so ended up doing nothing.
sorry morgan if i distracted you too.
we tried to look for the bus stop but got a little bit lost.
but we still got home in the end :D

yeah la, i talk so much, better go study.
now it's just more studying and eating.
and i owe people money.

2005-09-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

i don't want to go to school tomorrow
my head is hurting very badly ):
panadols don't seem to help much.

JEAN :D
i'm so going to marry a french guy next time, SO HOT!
please look at his eyes!!!!!!!
they're the most captivating pair of eyes i've seen in my entire life!
he's a cross between prince william and tom felton, hee

alright, i'm going to bed
the pain is killing me ):

2005-09-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

my phone bill came last night,
and my mom confiscated my sim card, so i'm left with only the phone.
i need to buy a prepaid card soon, chantel offered to pay for me!!!!
i'm right now, having a financial crisis, i love chantel alot!! <3
i still owe her money.
or maybe i'm not buying a prepaid, the phone won't be a distraction then.
but i'd probably give in, in the end.
it's only been one day and i already feel like dying.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TABITHA! <3
i know who you have a secret affair with ;)
and i realised your voice is even sharper than chantel's!
anyway thank you for sharing all the hot gossipzxzxx with me hahahah ;)

went out with debbie,abigail,chantel,tabitha and michelle today.
we ate alot, until i looked like i was 4 months pregnant.
then we laughed and laughed and laughed at all the stupid jokes and people until i almost vomitted it was really funny.
and i really cannot stop bingeing recently, all the fats are starting to show up on my face.
i realise whenever i put on weight, it will be the most obvious on my face.
so annoying because i don't know how to get rid of all the fats on my face.
i mean if the fats collect around your waist, you can do sit-ups or whatever to get rid of them,but if the fats are on your face, how to get rid of them?
facial exercises don't work btw, i read that somewhere.
after that, went to kap to study, quite productive.
i realise i study best at night.
and i must eat whenever i study
so study=binge=put on weight ):
and we are taking height and weight tomorrow,damnit.
i'm really feeling alot of angst now because my hair is very screwed and my face is like a pimple plantation and i don't know what's happening to some things and worst of all i have no money,no phone no modem ):

i hate droopy eyes, they are the ugliest things ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so if you have droopy eyes, you suck. (applies to certain people only and actually i only have one in mind)

2005-09-17T17:23:00.000+08:00

i want a car!
i want to get a driving license when i turn 18
so i can drive to school, haha.
but since i probably won't have money to get myself a car,
i'd steal my dad's car and make do with it for the time being.
and when i have money, i'll get a bmw or an audi!!!
haha cars in singapore are really expensive,
plus need to pay road tax, petrol, maintenance blah blah.
my dad told me he spends about $700 on petrol each month, so expensive!

what a beauty <3

time passes so quickly, the end of year exams are coming and the school year is coming to an end.
i feel so sad because chaos is definitely going to split up because all of us are going to different classes ):

i'm sorry for doing that time and time again

2005-09-06T20:41:00.000+08:00

went to school for science lesson this morning.
i didn't pay attention, because i was talking to chantel the whole time <3
we were supposed to go out and celebrate chantel's birthday,
but michelle and kristy wanted to play basketball and grace and denise went home.
so chantel and i went to queensway,
walked around waiting for people.
and i went home alone.
i took a 2 hour nap in the afternoon.
):

2005-09-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

haha yesterday was fun.
went out with steph,clarissa,cynthia,zoe and misuzu.
before zoe and misuzu came, we went to watch herbie at suntec.
then they came, we went to nydc to eat.
haha then we talked and took silly pictures.
hah, then we left the place without paying for the bill, they didn't find out.
then went home.

today nothing much happened.
after school, chan wm made us clean the student lounge and pat.
they made us do this stupid reflection thing, haha sarah gave very stupid answers.
lame la, sarah (HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA)
private joke ;)
then waited for an hour for sarah because she had counselling.
and then, she abandoned me to take a cab home with clara and denise ):
i hate taking the public transport home during evenings, it'd be packed with people.
i have to put up with people's bodily odours and people who keep pushing, very annoying.
and just now, some guy literally banged into me, my face somemore, ugh i was very angry because he didn't even apologise!
then i saw him rushing all the way to the front so that he could get into the train first, wth.

tomorrow's aad
heard that emily wong(my shit primary school teacher) and her daughter are coming for the p6 open house.
if her daughter comes into crescent, i'd bully her because emily wong gave me hell in primary school, really.
i remember she threw my maths book onto the floor in front of my whole class just because i did not write my name and shouted at me, and then later i had to pick it up.
there were other things she did to me, but i can't really remember.
hmm, i think we're all wearing uniform tomorrow.
haha we signed up for some workshops.

i really hate it when i criticise something/someone
another person would say "eh don't be so mean la" or "you think you are very good ah, everyday criticise people"
i mean, what i said were my opinions, why do you have to take it so hard?
and it's not like i'm talking about you or anything.
and who says ugly people aren't allowed to say another person is ugly?
i really don't like it when this situation happens.

haha, i'm waiting for steph to upload the pictures we took yesterday.

2005-08-31T21:51:00.000+08:00

i'm very annoyed with my hair
i went to cut it on monday, and it's very screwed now ):
ugh, whatever i'm never happy with my hair anyway.
now it's so dry, lisa says it looks like rusty nails
fgkjsdaglsdglfbdfhgdflngldbnldsvf ):
my skin's also very dry, it's dehydrated.
i went to put moisturizer, now it's much better :D
i must continue with my conditioning and moisturising routine everyday, hee.
i feel like blogging a long blog entry.

monday we had the dance assessment.
it was very funny seeing all the other groups dance.
hahahahahhahah princess ;)
and we were imitating huiying's group hahaha they were dancing with pompoms!
i guess our dance was okay, although when we came to the passing of umbrellas part, there was a little muddle, because the umbrellas wouldn't stay closed.
then after school, sarah and i went to town.
cut hair, then sarah went to buy lip balm to moisturise her lips(the ones on her face i mean hahahahah :P)
i want the body shop body lotion, it smells so nice!

tuesday got back dnt paper, i got 9/40.
i don't understand why we have to take dnt,i mean,
noone is going to take dnt next year, so what for take it this year?
i hate dnt, especially the drawing.
lisa is replacing me for the malacca trip.
stupid maths course, if not grace and i could have joined chaos for the trip.
but nevermind, grace and i are going dating, just the two of us HAHAH.
after school,went to eat with sarah kristy and lisa.
it was very funny,we laughed like shit.
they told me about the isabelle's mother joke hahahhahhahahaha it was very funny.
then we made fun of each other's ez link card photos hahaha.
i showed them mine for the first time, because i usually had something pasted over my photo, so i tore it out.
i really looked like shit in p6, my hair was like shazi HAHAHAHAHA.
sarah had pulled back hair and lisa had double chin HAHAHAHA
then we just roamed around, sarah and i went to use the computers in the library.
my dad went to meet gohkc to collect my result slip, so i waited for him, then he drove me home.

today was a half day because of teacher's day celebration.
the performances were all so funny HAHA.
chantel and i were laughing the whole time.
after that i went with kristy and michelle to visit their primary school,
because i didn't want to go home and i didn't want to go back to ijbt.
hmm, i saw alot of funny people hahaha.
after that we went to eat, then went home.

i'm meeting steph,clarissa,zoe they all tomorrow :D
haha i haven't met up with them for a very long time,
but i saw zoe today though.
so yup, it'd be fun :D

2005-08-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

i hate that feeling
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i knew something wasn't right ):
i really hate being so whiny towards sarah about this.

today we went to michelle's mom's office to
practise our dance.
we finally completed it!
the 7 umbrellas chantel brought were all faulty,
so debbie is going to change them.
her mom ordered food in for us :D

i'm sleepy, i kept sarah company till 4am last night.
i made her stay on the line for more than an hour though, sorry honeybaby <3

2005-08-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

had lit mass lecture after school.
got back history and lit papers today.
the lecture was a waste of time and i
was feeling irritated the whole while,
i don't know why, maybe because it was too hot.
after that went to town with sarah, went to lido.
we sat there for about 3 hours, talking.
then went home.

allow me to rant for awhile.
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2005-08-22T20:18:00.000+08:00

haha it's michelle's birthday in a few hours time
i'm not going to message her because i don't want to waste my messages (chantel also HAHAHA)
so,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE WONG <3
haha i hope you grow taller,
and stop being so stupid all the time.
i love you la even though you always shout at me,
and you didn't even remember my birthday, you shit.

today we practised some dance movements for the dance assesment.
we are using umbrellas HAHAHAH ;D
michelle is going to be the centre of attention, hahahahah she'd be in front.

sarah is a lousy cosmetic surgeon hahahaha
HAHAH HER PATIENT DOESN'T LOOK ANY BETTER :P
one day not talking to sarah makes me feel funny all over HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i'm feeling nocturnal tonight ;)

2005-08-18T20:53:00.000+08:00

everyone's sick.
denise was sneezing and coughing beside me the whole day, poor thing.
chantel,michelle,denise and grace all skipped mass run today.
was very sleepy in class, wasn't in the mood to do anything.
i went straight home after school today because i was really sleepy.
so i slept from 4 to 7, and i'm still tired ):
i don't feel like going to school tomorrow, but we're getting our papers back.

oh and on the 5th next month, we're having educational trip to malacca.
yes, crescent is so poor, we're not even staying overnight.
but i have no auto-roaming so i can't message anyone that day ):
anyway grace was telling me about her brother who's in hwa chong going to australia for an educational trip at the end of the year, and just in june this year, he went to europe.
so rich.

i'm not feeling good ):
psychic advisor is off duty today.

2005-08-15T20:30:00.000+08:00

i haven't been online for quite long
my modem was confiscated
my mom cannot stop moodswinging these few days, annoying.
common tests were not good, i think i'm going to flunk them all ):
i tried to study, but when i was doing the tests, i forgot everything i memorised.
it's always like this, especially for maths.

anyway today we had chaos outing! ;D (except that jasmine and huiying weren't with us)
it's been a really long time since we went out as a clique
heh we relived the sec one times
michelle and shermin went to cut hair, chantel and kristy accompanied them while denise grace and i went shopping.
michelle became such a hamsomzz bung after her haircut ;)
i have such good looking bung girlfriends HAHAHHA (kristy will be one after haircut)
didn't get anything, then went to eat.
it was very cute because all 7 of us were eating the same thing :D
grace is a very fussy eater.
then we decided to be hipzzzz~ and take neoprints.
i hate taking neoprints but it's fun to take as a clique.
then went home with grace while chantel kristy and shermin went to shop.

i want to cut hair, my hair's getting very annoying.
i've got so many things to do, 24 hours a day isn't enough
and i'm getting fat, i've been eating so much these few days.
i have a breakout): an annoying zit on my nose, UGH.

2005-08-11T19:45:00.000+08:00

haha, i revived my blog
yesterday i was feeling bored, so i deleted my blog.
haha, so all my posts are gone.

okay today was VERY unproductive.
didn't do much work.
okay, actually didnt even do any work.
sarah and i were basically drawing nonsense the whole time :/
i'm sure to fail maths tomorrow, as usual.

stupid msn won't let me sign in, so i'm talking to sarah on skype and hello.
hahahah :D
i better study some literature later
i'm not in the studying mood.